Never Give Up!!!

This week has been a hard one as far as trying to get another date with the girl I went ice skating with. My roommates girlfriend talked to her at church last week. I'm sure there was more to this, but basically she said she had a good time and that she would go on another date with me. I was going to ask her again despite knowing that, but it's always nice to get a boost of confidence.

On Tuesday, I gave her a call to set up a date, but she had to decline because she didn't know if she was going home or not. Of course I was a little disappointed, but several things kept crossing my mind through out the week that kept me going through everything that happened. For one, I had a feeling in Texas a few weeks before moving here that I would be married no later than 2-3 years from the season I moved here I also had a feeling that the reason I wasn't married yet was personal growth and because she wasn't old enough or mature enough yet which gave me an impression that she is relatively younger than me. I also had a dream this week that I don't remember any details other than remembering that I got married in it.

With these things on my mind, I was thinking about her and what I should do while getting ready to go to work on Thursday. A thought came to me to call her at lunch break and ask if she wanted to go to dinner. On our first date I had mentioned that I have had a craving for Olive Garden, so I mentioned that when I left a message for her. She called back and left a message saying she "would love to go to dinner" but she couldn't because she had to work until 7pm and then go to a friend's recital. She then went on to say that she wasn't going home after all and asked if I wanted to go over for a game night on Saturday with her and her roommates. I gave her a call that night to get details, but she didn't answer yet again so I left a quick message. She didn't call me back that night or on Friday, so I called again on Saturday about 3:30pm but got voice mail again. She called me back saying she was sorry for not getting back to me. She then said she didn't know when they would have game night, but she would talk to her roommates and call me back. I waited what seemed like an eternity, which tells me that I really like her more than I was willing to admit. That is my weakness in dating because then I over analyse things and take things for the worst. She finally called again, but she had bad news. She had been online and saw that she had a paper due on Monday that she needed to write. She seemed sorry and a bit disappointed, so I don't think she was trying to ditch me, but because of the whole guessing game, doubts had entered my mind as I wondered what I should do next if anything at all. Somehow, the doubt got so bad that I wondered if I should ask her on another date at all. I know love blinds you, but crushes just tears out all common sense. I decided to talk wait a week and ask her again next week, but the confidence boost I needed happened at ward prayer tonight.

Today was our Ward Conference and since the Stake Presidency had already spent most of the day with us, they came to ward prayer and brought their wives. They open the time up for questions which we all knew that they planned for. The surprising thing was that most of the questions was about their dating experiences and marriages. Through out the time slot we had, I had heard just what I needed to go up to her afterwards and ask her on another date and I did just that. I talked with her and her roommates a little bit then pulled her aside and set up a day. I'm going to do my "Round the World" date, but told her it was a surprise and all she needed was to dress warm to walk outside a little bit, and to come hungry. I need to do some research with the restaurants here to see which "countries" we can visit, so I told her I would call later this week with more details. She seemed happy when I talked to her, which is one of the reasons I asked her out in the first place and that helped my confidence even more.

I'm so grateful for the discussion we had today. I don't know what will end up happening with her, but I do know that I'm supposed to be here and that I need to be going on dates. After I got back from that, I saw an article where I women in Korea has failed her driving test over 600 times, but she keeps trying knowing that someday she will pass.

The lesson I learned today is to never let disappointments get you down, because that is what they do. Disappointments bring you down. If we hold on to the good, we will climb higher and higher until we can't climb anymore, but then you start to fly and there is nothing to pull you down except those moments of small trials that will only lift you higher in the end. Isn't life wonderful?!!!